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Name: tricia
Birthday: 2/28/1985
Gender: Female
Interests: LOVE Jesus...love kids and my family and friends...really like to play guitar and sing...like to swim and golf
Occupation: Student
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Member Since:
4/23/2005
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| wow...it's been a long time!!! and another wow...i'm 21 now!
whoa! that's crazy! anyways, my friends are the bestest 
they baked me a cake and gave me some really sweet cards and gifts on
sunday night...and of course they sang too and made me turn all red i'm
sure! it was fun...i love them. and corey even got up super
early this morning and went to the boring bmv with me! tiff and
adam will be here soon to take me out to lunch...so much funness!
other exciting stuff--my daddy started his job yesterday!!! yay!
and...in case you haven't heard yet...manda and i are going to CAMBODIA
this summer!!!! :o) we're really really exciting...lots to do to
prepare...but still really excited! and we got a packet about it
in the mail yesterday, so that's fun! wow, so much stuff!
no wonder i skipped class this morning  yep! have a nice day!
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| God is good and faithful. even when i doubt so much, in myself and really in His ability to overcome my weaknesses. God will bring about His will regardless of any wrong turn i might make. He's so much bigger than me...thank goodness! and He's teaching me to trust Him more. He's in control--stop freaking out, tricia! | | |
| so, fun God time tonight...reading all about abram and
sarai and lot and hagar and all that crazy stuff! you should check it
out anyways, i also had some good time
journaling and looking back at some of the things i journaled earlier
in the semester...came across some good stuff that God was teaching me
and working in me. so, here's something He laid on my heart back
in october when i was kinda having a hard time understanding some
stuff...but God, of course, is soooo good and faithful!!! (i know
it seems really long...but it's not that much really!)
why do i sit here
i lay here
and i feel so pointless
so alone
so purposeless in this place
in everything i do
i feel alone
and i want more
i feel
i feel
i'm frustrated with feeling
i feel like i should do something
something more meaningful
but what
time
why does it go so fast
but so slow
why do i feel meaningless at times
are my efforts really worth it in the long run
are they my efforts
do i need to re-evaluate
am i so disconnected from God
is satan pulling me
why
what joy
what pleasure is there apart from Christ
true joy
maybe that's why i feel
i feel
i'm not seeking my Lord wholeheartedly
what does that mean
what does it look like
how can i be so satisfied in Him
can i
when i seek Him for reasons just opposite of that
when i look to please Him
not myself
when i surrender my ways
my thoughts
my dreams
my heartaches
my emotions
my bitterness
all of me
ugly me
beautiful me
to Him
live to bring Him glory
stop trying so hard to gain satisfaction for myself
He has a purpose in me
but it's not for me
it's for Him
to bring Him glory
He's really what it's all about
who am i
his servant
gracefully
he chose me to do His work
work
it's not meant to be easy
but it's worth it
He's worth it
remember that
focus on that
i need to center my life around and about Him
then
then
i have a point
a purpose
i know i'm not alone
i know i have meaning
but this is all in Christ
for Christ
without Him i'm back at the beginning
laying around
pitying myself
focused on me
me
the end of me
what if that's what this life was about
i live
i die
what a sad time
i am nothing
but the end of me is really the beginning of me
a better me
not about me at all
not limited by me
but Christ in me
Jesus Christ
may i be about Him and His glory
may they see Him
may this be the end of me
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| so much has happened since the last time i posted! good and encouraging
times at Christmas conference...God pretty much rocks my socks
off! He is soooo good and faithful! i got to see jess and
becca and meet dustin....and a good friend accepted Christ!!!!!!
yay Jesus! oh, and not up there with Jesus and salvation...but still
pretty fun--no matter what lies corey may tell, i def. kicked his butt
at the inflatable gladiator game! ok, maybe not...but i knocked
him off pretty good once :) anyways, on to california...first of
all, the plane ride was amazing (besides the part that it was like 5
hours long). it was so good to just be in awe of God and His
beautiful creation--the sunrise, the clouds, the mountains, the
waves....a gorgeous display of God's power! and it was nice to be
in warm weather all week, too :) the actual conference i attended in
cali. wasn't my favorite, but God is def. reaffirming things He's
revealed to me about His plan for my life...so that's good. still
challenging though. and this book--the heavenly man--oh my
goodness! i want to be so passionate and so devoted
and...yeah. you should read it! still praying always about
this summer...but i finally started on an app., so that's really
exciting and scary all at the same time! well, have a fun, rainy day! :)
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| merry Christmas to all! whoa...is it really Christmas eve already?! i'm
still in disbelief. anyways, i love my family. i'm getting to
spend some good time with them. i haven't done that in a while, so it's
very nice. i've been reading a lot too. manda got me this book
about a chinese Christian man who came to faith at 16 and then
immediately started praying radical prayers and going where God called
him to go and preaching the Word and memorizing it like crazy...all
while being persecuted. yeah, it's pretty much amazing. it
puts stuff in perspective for sure. what am i doing to spread His fame?
what am i even risking for Him? i really need to invest more in
praying faithful prayers and listening to and trusting and obeying the
Lord in the plans He has for me...well, for Himself but using me!
anyways, forget santa and celebrate Jesus! besides, as my roomie would
say, "santa clauss is dead!"  
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